Going back to Younique.

Dear Diary.. 

So over the last 5 months I have been feeling a little lost since I left Younique, I am not going to lie, when I left Younique I made a quick decision to jump into another MLM company & kid myself that I could make that work - it was like a really bad break-up, I left Younique, something I adore, & then jumped into something else so I didn't have to think about how much I was hurting.. & at first, I really enjoyed it, but it was so different to Younique, how they did things, they didn't do it as a team like they do with Younique, it's pretty much, someone gets you to sign up with them & then it's every man for himself. i'm not saying that's a bad thing, a lot of people find they can work a business better like that, but not me, I loved the team effort that was Younique, I loved the buzz it gave me, & the tension when you were close to a promotion, being apart of Younique is probably the first time in my life that I can say I truly found myself, I have been through a lot of shit in my life, emotionally, physically & mentally, so when I came across Younique after a friend had signed up, it was like I was given a new lease of life, I wasn't used to people being nice to me, I wasn't used to people helping me, all I had in my life previous was drama, so to say Younique changed me was an understatement. 

when I was 9 years old I watched my mum get beat by my dad, & then months after she had left him, another man came into her life & he abused myself & my sisters on a daily basis & my mum knew nothing about it, then when I was 14 years old I watched a friend commit suicide, run out into the road & throw himself under a car,  I was bullied all threw school, I got jumped twice as a teen when I was walking home, & when I was 14 weeks pregnant with my daughter, I was grabbed by a bloke & sexually assaulted.. so when I found out wht Younique stand for, & what selling mascara's really is all about, I was blown away, it became my passion, but then 6 months into doing Younique I got in with the wrong crowd, a bunch of "bent" presenters that ran a raffle page & all fixed raffles for one an other, & thinking about it now, I have no idea what made me think that this was a good idea.. but I went along with it anyways, but eventually I was singled out, ganged up on & dropped in the shit, so after servere bullying I decided to leave Younique.. I made a massive mess & hurt a lot of people in the process which I am truly sorry for. I have spent the last 5 months beating myself up for doing what I did. 

Until one day a couple of weeks ago I made a massive decision, I didn't want to do Acti-Labs & play pretend that I was happy in what I was doing, because I wasn't, & i'm pretty sure people could see I was just playing pretend because I didn't sell anything in the whole 5 months I was with Acti-Labs, I made exactly £28 commission in 5 months, & it just wasn't worth it, so I left, swallowed by pride, grabbed my balls & contacted my Uplines from Younique.... & because I was brave & did so, I have been given a second chance that I am NOT EVER going to blow. for me, its all by the rules now, I want to build my business properly, & I want to build a business with a company that I love, which is Younique. 

so on November 18th, I am re-joining Younique & starting my adventure again, from the bottom, but I won't be there for long. As well as feeling scared, nervous, I am also really excited & truly grateful for this second chance, I am going to show absolutely everyone what I am made of, I am going to build the trust & friendships of those I hurt once more & I am going to quite frankly kick ass.