Diary Post #56. (Labour & birth)

Dear Diary... 

Getting to experience labour even though you know in your heart that you will no doubt end up with a section at the end of it was one of the world scariest yet proudest moments in my life! I did 10 hours of labour with Felicity, "proper gave it some welly" according to Neil, & even though we ended up in theater having our planned section after all, i'm now not sat here thinking, "I wish i'd tried" because I did! I knew for a fact i'd end up with a section, but there was just this little part of me that couldnt help think "what if I can do it myself?" a little part of me that ached to experience labour again... so really, i'm glad I went into labour on my own, because as much as I was shitting myself, I was allowed to do things my way, I took control & I did good. Felicity may have come out of my stomach, but I brought my little girl into this world MY way & I am so so proud of myself for that. 

At 36 weeks I signed forms to have a planned section due to my labour with my son going wrong & him getting stuck due to me suffering with a pelvis disorder. At 38 weeks I was found to be in slow labour, but I was stuck at 2cm dilated. I spent two days in hospital contracting & in pain, then all of a sudden it all stopped, so I was sent home. Exactly one week later, at 39 weeks, I woke up the early hours of Wednesday morning to find i'd had my "blood show" & the contractions were back, at first I just thought "here we go again" so I tried my best to ignore it & get on with the day... but by Wednesday tea time the contractions had sped up & I was really beginning to feel the pain, so again we took a trip to the hospital, all the while I just kept thinking "here we go again, another false alarm" once at Maternity assessment I was examined & told that I was 3cm dilated (yey, we'd progressed) 1cm in a whole week though, seriously? so I was then taken to the delivery suite were I was made comfortable & spent the following 6 hours bouncing on a birthing ball, drinking fluids & having dehydracodine for my pain! at midnight I was examined again but I hadnt progressed, so I was sent back to the maternity assessment ward & Neil was sent home to get some rest.. because as we were about to find out, this was the calm before the storm... 

Two hours later at 2am! I woke up panting, sweating & unable to breathe through the pain! The midwife asked if I wanted more pain relief & I told her that I wanted examining! She examined me & finally, I was 4cm! ESTABLISHED LABOUR! so again I was taken back to the delivery suite were I was now able to have some of the "good stuff" gas & air ;) I sent Neil a text telling him we were finally in established labour & to get some sleep but get here early. The midwife looking after me was lovely, we talked about alsorts, friends, family, weddings, hobbies, likes & dislikes. Neil wasnt with me for 6 hours of my labour & she really helped keep me calm. Neil arrived around 6am & I was examined again & told my waters had gone & I was between 6-7cm dilated.

Around 11am the pain got really bad & I started asking for an epidural, Felicity was back to back so all my contractions were building up in my back & it was agony! I remember being checked again & being told I was fully dilated & me thinking "oh fuck, oh no!" it was agreed for me to have an epidural though, & once that was in, I started pushing, I spent an hour pushing but just like the first time, Felicity didn't budge! so after an hour, I was taken to theatre for them to try forceps to see if they could get her out that way.. this once again failed, so I was then given my planned section & at 12.40pm our daughter entered the world & it was amazing, I remember the exact moment, I burst into tears & so did Neil! Neil took pictures whilst she was cleaned up & I waited to see my daughter for the first time! (which felt like forever) but then he brought her over to me & I can't even explain that rush of love that surged through my body the minute I clapped my eyes on her! I was so worried thar I wasn't going to love her as much as I do Joel, but I needen't have bothered because she was absolutle perfection & I knew in that moment I loved her. 

After what felt like a life time in theatre being stiched up, we were then taken to recovery, were I got to have my first proper cuddle with my daughter!! I can't even put the experience into words, even now i'm still a little in shock, the whole thing was just perfect, the atmosphere, the medical staff, even Neil. It really was a lovely experience, especially after my rubbish time with Joel & I truly feel blessed to have been able to experience natural again even though I didn't manage it alone! 

Felicity is now 12 days old & I still look at her & want to cry because I can't believe she is finally here... 24 months I waited for my little ladybug! 14 months of trying to concieve & then 9 months of her growing inside me & I can tell you, she was more than worth the wait, she is amazing! 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 39. (Welcome to the world Felicity.)

Dear Diary.. 

Week 39:

I would like to introuduce to you all our beautiful daughter, MISS FELICITY RAE-ELLEN MORTIMER. who entered the world at 39 weeks gestation; Thursday 3rd July 2014 at 12.40pm weighing 7lb 14oz! I kind of always knew she "might" arrive early, but I got the shock of my life when she actually did. 

As you all know, if you have been following, I was taken into hospital at 38 weeks & told I was in slow labour & stuck at 2cm dilated. well, exactly one week later, the following Wednesday tea time, I was once again back at the hospital, only this time i'd had my "blood show" & contractions had been coming since early hours of Wednesday morning! I was examined & told that I was 3cm dilated & they took me up to the delivery suite, at this point I wasn't too excited as we'd been through all this the week before & I just assumed i'd spend a few hours there, come back to the ward & then go home the following day! I did spend a few hours there & then end up back on the assesment ward, but at 2am, my contractions had sped up & become a little more regular, so I was examined again & found to be 4cm dilated, finally ESTABLISHED LABOUR! what I had been waiting for a whole week! typically it happened two hours after Neil had been sent home, so I sent him a text told him I was on delivery but to get some sleep as nothing too drestic was happening at the moment. 

On delivery suite I was given gas & air (the good stuff) & dyamorphine for the pain! I remember talking with the midwife for a few hours, we got talking about our favorite mcdonalds foods, family, friends ect, it was really nice & then things start to go a bit blurred in my mind. I remember Neil arriving around 6am & the midwife examining me again & telling me I was 6-7cm dilated & I also remember a new midwife introuducing herself to me at change over around 7am, after that I think it was around 10am & I was asking for an epidural because the pain had gotten really bad & because our girl was back to back the contractions were all building up in my back & the only comfy place was on all fours! I don't know what time it was, but I was eventually given at epidural at full dilation, this isnt usually recommended but because of the positiong of our daughter the doctors were concerned about the amount of pain I was actually in so they went ahead & it worked. I then spent one hour trying to push our daughter into the world, but unfortunetely she didn't move down enough so I was taken for forceps in theatre which also failed, so I was then given the section that I had signed up for at 36 weeks & at 12.40pm our duaghter came into the world. 

After 4 days in hospital we are now home & I am loving every moment of being a Mummy of two! I had so many worries about how things would be when I was pregnant, & thinking back now, I really don't know why I was worried! Joel loves his sister to the stars, & although she has only been here with us 6 days, it already feels like she's been here forever! 

Pregnancy Diary Week 37.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 37: 

So this week has been a bit of a crazy one! at the beginning of the week I started to really suffer with what I thought was Braxton Hicks, then on Tuesday evening, I had a blood show, so I rang maternity assessment & they told me to relax, take some pain killers & get a bath, all of this I did but through the night I started to suffer with pains that were vertually on top of each other! all day Wednesday I wasn't sure what to do with myself, I didn't want to go all the way to hospital just for them to say "its just Braxton Hicks" me look like a total fool & be sent home! so I carried on suffering... but come evening time, I couldn't take it no more & the pains had become really rather intense, 3-4 minutes apart & lasting 1+half minutes, so me & the hubby took a trip up to hospital & our friend Tasha took Joel to her house.

when we got to the maternity assesment center, they examined me & told me I was actually 2cm dilated, but my daughter is lying in the "back to back" position, which can be why I am  having contractions that are practically "on top of each other" but i'm not really progressing. the back to back position can really slow labour down. They then decided to keep me in over night because I was in so much pain & also because I am booked in for a planned section. I had a bath after Neil went home at 10pm & spent alot of the night bouncing on a birthing ball, but nothing seem to ease the pain! 

Thursday morning my contractions really sped up & I was taken over to delivery suite so that more could be done for me pain wise! again I hadn't progressed though, I was still stuck at 2cm! I spent all day having contractions & it was suggested that I should maybe get into one of the birthing pools to help with the pain, so I did this & it was AMAZING! ;) but after that the pains just stopped dead... :/ altogether I spent 48 hours in hospital with contractions & agonizing backache due to my daughters position! but because I hadn't yet progressed past 2cm, they let me come home! 

I got home to my boy Friday afternoon! & i've pretty much been the same since, i'm still suffering with "tightnings" & agonizing backache, so I am spending alot of time in the bath to ease the pain & trying to rest up the best I can. 

I am now 38 weeks & 3 days along in my pregnancy & we have 8 days to go until I have my planned section, & I am not even joking, it can't come fast enough! I have now given up on my daighter making an "early" appearance, I think she's just being a meany with me & i'm guna have to wait until 7th July when I have my section to get my first cuddle!

Symptoms this week have been; Heartburn, contractions & backache!! swollen feet, dizzy spells & TIREDNESS!!!! - due to not being able to get comfortable, anywhere!

That's all for this week... 

Hopefully I get to write one more post before our little ladybug arrives & if not, then I guess my next one will be our birth announcement! :D Thank you for reading. X 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 35 & Week 36.

Dear Diary. 

So guys, this post is going to be a double dose as I completely forgot to do a week 35 post due to so much going on at the moment! i'm sorry about that. 


Week 35 & Week 36:

The last two weeks have been rather eventful to say the least.. at 35 weeks I visited the hospital to sign all my consent forms for my elective section & have MRSA swabs done & apart from the hospital being utterly chocka-block & me not actually seeing anyone until an hour after my appointment should have been, everything else went pretty much to plan! because of my lung condition though, I have to see an anaesthetist on Thursday (19th June) so they can check my chest & talk to me about what will be happening in theatre. also on 2nd July, I have to go & have my pre-bloods done so that they have blood on standby if I need it during or after my op! This can't be done though until 5-7 days before my section, hence why I will be having it done on 2nd July!

HOPEFULLY asides from these two appointments, that's me pretty much done with the hospital now until section day, fingers crossed. I will still be having appointments with my midwife right up until I have our little lady though, then until I am 10 days post op! after that I will be discharged & my health visitor will take over from my midwife! 


Symptoms;

Braxton hicks, pelvis pain, backache, heartburn & swelling of the hands, feet & ankles have become the main culprits this past fortnight. Such fun.

 Me & my Princess Fiona Ogre feet. 

don't you just LOVE the back end of pregnancy? ;) 

That's it for this "fortnights" instalments! keep an eye out for our next post. 

Thank you for reading. X 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 34.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 34: 

So this week I had a bit of a scare... my own doing! 

I was in the back garden playing Frisbee with Joel & it went over into next doors garden! next door who are NEVER in I may add. So not even thinking about it, I decided I would climb over the fence to get Joel's frisbee back! something every mother would do for their child right? not at 34 weeks pregnant with a huge stomach they wouldn't..... but I didn't think of this until later on! 

I climbed over the fence & got myself stuck, I had one leg over into next door & my other still in ours & I couldn't hoist my leg over & the more I tried the more I was pinned down on the fence & putting pressure on my stomach! what to do? there was nothing I could do because there was only myself & Joel home, so I had to carry on! eventually I got my legs over the fence, grabbed the frisbee & got back over into our garden, but then panic struck as I began stuffing stomach cramp! They didn't last too long & the whole time my girl was kicking, but hell did it scare me!! after that she went awfully quiet too, so I spent the rest of the day constantly going to the toilet expecting to see blood! When evening came & she wasn't her usually lively self I freaked out & called maternity assessment, told them what happened & they told me that she is perfectly protected in there but sometimes a knock to the stomach can make the uterus move backwards, so although she would still have been moving as normal I wouldnt have felt it much, so I was told to get a bath (because the water from the bath would push my uterus to the front of my stomach) & if I didn't feel her move in the next hour I could go in & they would do a heart trace on her!

THANKFULLY after only being in the bath 20 minutes she was kicking the crap out of me again & honestly, I don't think I have ever been so relieved to have her sticking her body parts out  hurting me! Needless to say I haven't climbed no more fences & I have really been thinking about what I have been doing! 

Symptoms this week have been; 

HIP PAIN like you wouldn't believe, i'm pretty sure she's starting to engage now as I keep having pains in my groin that feels like somebody is stabbing me & they're quite "stingy" too! 

TIREDNESS Still suffering with this little beauty unfortunately, but this week it has felt like no many how much sleep I have gotten I could still sleep for the remainder of my pregnancy.

HEARTBURN The heartburn has been dreadful, I haven't been able to eat anything without suffering! so I just eat whatever I want now, I have come to the conclusion that, doesn't matter what I eat i'm still guna get heartburn so I may as well enjoy my food ha! 

SWELLING This week I had to take off my wedding & engagement rings, which has made me feel utterly naked & on top of that, it's my 6th wedding anniversary on Saturday 14th June & I just feel so wrong not wearing my rings! I have also had to purchase some flip flops because I can no longer get my feet into my trainers! (such fun) 

Only another 29 days days left to go now though & our beautiful little lady will be here! Now the countdown really begins & i'm not going to lie, i'm shitting my pants! 

That's it for this weeks update, keep a look out for next weeks! ;)
Thank you for reading! X  

Pregnancy Diary. Week 33.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 33: 

This week we had our LAST growth scan & got the pleasure of seeing our little ladybug for the last time before we finally get to meet her in person in July! It was totally amazing, she was looking right at us & her face was so clear... & chubby! :D I was also given a brief talking to about my upcoming elective section & was given leaflets that I have been reading through since yesterday. (pretty daunting stuff)

Our little ladybug at 33+6! her estimated weight is 5lb 14oz.

In 2 weeks time, I will be going back to hospital to sign all of my consent forms, have bloods taken for theater prep & they also spoke to me about having swabs for the MRSA virus? I'm not quite sure what that is all about at the moment because she just kinda skimmed over it, but I will learn more when I go back at 36 weeks I guess.

 

It's all so darn real now, & I am not actually afraid to admit that I am starting to feel quite nervous, but at the same time I am so much more excited about meeting our DAUGHTER! it's so overwhelming that I want to fill up & cry whenever I think about holding her for the first time ha ha!

My mood this week has been amazing, although I have been suffering with a lot of symptoms, stabbing pains in my "lady garden" heartburn, tiredness & even pain in my boobs that has felt like someone has gotten a hot needle & inserted it into my breast (ouch) on the "depression" side of things though, my mood couldn't be any better, I have such an amazing support network of family & friends that I didn't even realize I had last-time & that is why I ended up like I did, but this time, I am taking full advantage & using it, if I need help, I am asking for it. 

That's pretty much it for this week guys! 

keep a look out for my next post & thank you for reading! X

Pregnancy Diary. Week 32.

Dear Diary..

Week 32: 

On 13th May I saw my midwife again for another check up which went great, our daughter is growing right on target & her heart rate was 138bpm! she sounded so happy & content, it was lovely! by far my most favorite part about seeing the midwife ;) 

Whilst I was with my midwife I was also given my Hooping Cough Vaccine! this helps to build my immune system as well as our daughters, which will help protect her from any infections or illness once she is born, right up until she has her first vaccinations at 8 weeks old! The only thing that is a tad naff about it is, I have been feeling incredibly lousy! It has given me a right belter of a cold, that I am still trying to shift & on top of that I have just gotten over a chest infection too! :/ but all in all I am feeling good. 

My mood has been a little all over the place these past few days, bawling my eyes out one minute & then feeling incredibly happy the next! Joys of carrying a girl I suspect ha! my symptoms haven't been too bad this week though thankfully! the heartburn seems to have calmed down a little, that is as long as I don't eat something I know will flare it! The only thing I have really been struggling with this week is the tiredness! what with all this hot weather, I have been slowly melting & wanting to do nothing but sleep! 

The highlight of my weekend was when I took an afternoon nap in just a tshirt & my underwear on top of the covers with my bedroom window wide open & the fan on me! ;) total bliss! 

Next Wednesday we get to see our daughter for the LAST TIME before she is born! this is a little gutting, but also very exciting because I know we are finally getting that little bit closer to finally meeting her! I then see my midwife again on 3rd June! 

Not long left to go now! - 7 weeks! 
I am so excited. 

That is pretty much it for this week! 
thanks for reading. Xx

Pregnancy Diary. Week 31.

Dear Diary... 

Week 31: 

7 weeks to go boys & girls!! ;) 

Not much to report this week so I am sorry if this post is a little "boring" :/ its been a quiet week to say the least.. but I guess now is the "calm before the storm" period! enjoying relaxing & slowly getting everything together ready for my girls big arrival. 

symptoms this week have also pretty much been the same! 

*Heartburn 

* Tiredness

* Emotions (left, right & center) 

you name it, i've probably felt it this week. 

That's all for this week pretty much! 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 30.

Dear Diary... 

Week 30:

So we have finally reached that final hurdle! single figures until our beautiful girl is born! 

This week has been a bit of a tough one for me with all these hormones rushing around in my body. On Sunday I went out for the day with my boys & my hubby's parents. Only I spent that day a total & complete hormonal mess! 

I'm not very good at "expressing" how I am feeling or dealing with low moods at the best of times. So having to deal with pregnancy hormones on top of depression can be really hard, especially when you have days were you're not sure if it's just the hormones kicking your ass or if you're actually having a low day. Sunday I suffered really badly & I actually began to think I was possessed. Poor Neil got it in the neck from me at every angle & his mum & dad must have thought I was a right miserable tosser! Luckily, Neil is amazing & he completely understood what I was having to deal with & by the next day we were laughing about it, (after i'd cried again first) I was feeling so bad, especially when I saw his mum & she said that she felt sorry for Neil because of the way I was being, I just wanted to crawl up my own ass with embarrassment! but luckily I have spoken to her since & she too understands & has told me not to worry about it. I was NEVER this bad with Joel, my moods are possibly 10,000,000 times worse this time round, maybe it is because I am carrying a girl? who knows... all I know is that I really need this next 8 weeks to hurry up now before I turn into a complete & utter monster! :') 

Luckily on Wednesday, my best friend came to the rescue & she got me out of the house for the day (which really helped) & we took our boys to soft play so that they could run around like the little loons they are to burn some energy! she really is one in a million & I honestly couldn't ask for a better friend in my life! I know with her around, & my husband, i'll stay on track this time! no falling into deep depressions & feeling like a failure, because I AM NOT A FAILURE! I will eventually beat this! 

Symptoms this week have been pretty much the same; Lots of hormones, heartburn, the odd bit of cramping & tones of movement from baby girl!!:D 


That's pretty much it for this week! 
Thank you for reading & don't forget to look out for my next post. 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 29.

Dear Diary... 

Week 29:

29+4, 10 weeks today I will be cuddling my beautiful newborn baby girl. It's the final hurdle now.

This last week or so has been completely overwhelming. Easter weekend we purchased our girl's pram, we got her the Mothercare Expedior in salsa red. it's utterly amazing & I can't wait to put her in it for the first time. 

It's all beginning to feel so real now, yet I still can't seem to get my head round the fact that in just a few short weeks I am going to be a mummy of two! :D I'm so excited but I am also terrified at the same time. 

Symptoms this week have been; Braxton hicks - whoever said they didn't hurt has clearly never experienced them! heartburn, back & hip ache, plus the tiredness has also started to kick in again, i'm now back to grabbing myself a nap whenever I can because I feel exhausted all the time!

I am also finding myself constantly cleaning! I'm guessing this is what they call nesting? I never experienced it with Joel, but this time round I am constantly on the go! I can actually say I have an empty washing basket for the first time ever this week! the nice weather has also helped because I have been able to get everything out on the line! This week I have also striped my living room ready for it to be redecorated in the next couple of weeks! I can't wait until it is looking all nice again! 

Nothing else to report this week really, 

keep a look out for my next post. X 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 28.

Dear Diary...

Week 28:

This week I saw my midwife for my 28 weeks check which included, measuring the size of my bump (i'm in perfect proportion) & I also had to have my iron levels checked again which meant, more bloods!! I think my midwife was more traumatized than me, because as I have explained before, my veins aren't very "co-operative" but thankfully, she is possibly the FIRST person to have ever listened to me were my veins are concerned & she placed the needle in exactly were I told her too & got blood on her first shot, even if she was sat apologizing the whole time because were she put the needle was slightly a tender spot BUT, the best place to get blood. ;) I am now sporting a rather awesome bruise but it's nothing I can't handle. 

whilst at my appointment I also got the pleasure of listening to my baby girl's heartbeat, which I have to admit, is my most favorite part about visiting the midwife.. she was sat rather high up, she's living in my ribs at the moment, which can get quite uncomfortable but it's obviously were she's comfy most. <3

This weeks symptoms have been; heartburn - surprise surprise!! leg cramp, braxton hicks & lots of backache! below I have included a link to a video of our ladybug's heartbeat, this was taken at 28+4 weeks. 

That's all for this week, enjoy the video! :D 
Ladybug's heartbeat, 28+4. 

Pregnancy Diary Week 27.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 27: 

This week we had our growth scan to check on our baby girl, she is doing great. She is growing perfectly, moving loads & her estimated weight right now is 2lb 8oz.

When the guy doing our scan was checking on our little lady, she wouldn't stop moving & kicking him, it was quite giggle-some! The guy had to get me to breath in & hold my breathe a few times just to get her to slow down a little on her movements so he could get all the correct measurements, especially when he was doing the blood core!

Symptoms this week have been; Heartburn, LOTS of tears, leg cramps & my all time favorite, (not) Braxton Hicks! :/ I'm so excited to meet my girl now, July needs to hurry up.

Pregnancy Diary. Week 26.

Dear Diary... 

Week 26: 

12 WEEKS TO GO! :D I can't believe how fast this pregnancy is going. As of Thursday I will be entering the third trimester of my pregnancy & before I know it, i'll be cuddling my beautiful baby girl in my arms. 

This week symptoms are all over the place. I am suffering with Braxton Hicks (yey) & terrible heartburn, seriously I have had it constant for 3 days now! Thankfully a friend came to my rescue this evening & dropped off some stuff that helped completely ease my heartburn. It was so bad I couldn't eat, drink or even sleep because when I lay down the burning sensation bubbled into my throat & caused me to gag :( Other symptoms I have been suffering with are tiredness, hip & backache & a very heavy tummy. 

Mood wise I have been feeling great. This week I haven't been as teary thankfully, jeez last week I was crying at absolutely everything, it got so bad I actually thought my depression was resurfacing! :/ Thankfully its not & I am trying my hardest to keep a lid on the bawling. 

That's all for this week, 

I hope you've enjoyed reading. X 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 25.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 25: 

So this week, today actually! I my #GTT (glucose tolerance test) & it is probably the one & ONLY thing I hate about pregnancy because not only did I have to fast from Midnight the previous night, I had to also endure a 20 minutes car journey up to the hospital so we could be there for 9am so I could have two sets of bloods done & drink some glucose liquid! & frankly, my little lady isn't a fan of me travelling by bus or car as it is, never mind with an empty stomach! then there is also the fact that I am probably the most awkward person in the world to get blood from! -_- 

For those who don't know what a glucose tolerance test is, it is a procedure that woman with a "high bmi" have to go through to ensure that they don't develop gestational diabetes! In all honesty, I never developed it with Joel, so hopefully I won't this time either, & i was much bigger with my son! 

When I arrived I had to have my first set of bloods done then I had to drink the glucose liquid! Eeek, it tasted like rancid really flat coke that had been left to go warm for a week. After that I had to just sit quietly for 2 hours whilst the glucose coursed my veins. After the 2 hours (which felt alot more like 5 hours because I was starving) I had my second set of bloods took & was then told I could go home! & feast ;) 

An hour into my "waiting" I went dizzy & ended up sat on the floor with my legs crossed & my head in my arms on a chair I was supposed to be sat on! I thought would have been better for me to get on the floor, rather than fall down on it. 

Thankfully all is over & done with now & after a good lunch time feast I am feeling much better! I am just left with this cotton wool & tape on my arm now that I haven't yet had the guts to take off because my arm is still slightly tender after being jabbed four times with needles to get blood! 0_0 #thejoysofpregnancy

That's all for this week really. 
keep an eye out for my next post... 

thanks for reading X 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 24.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 24: 

So I am now officially 6 months pregnant! were did that go? I don't even feel 6 months pregnant... as such. 

Symptoms this week are; tiredness & crying all the time at everything -_- my hormones are all over the bloody place, I swear I wasn't this bad when pregnant with Joel!

This week I am also seeing my little lady move around from the outside of my stomach, it is rather awesome! she's so active now it's unreal. I already know I am going to feel lost once she arrives, but I am so excited about finally having her in my arms. Only 15 weeks left to go. 

Me & the hubby have also now finally decided on our lady's pram & as of next week we shall be buying all the "big stuff" needed for her, along with all the little exciting bits such as clothes etc! :D I see my midwife tomorrow for my 24 weeks appointment so I shall up date you all on that in the next post.

That's all for this week! 

thanks for reading. Xxxxx

Pregnancy Diary. Week 23.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 23:


So this week I am suffering badly with "Pregnancy Nightmares" & it has to be said that waking up in the middle of the night crying at the age of 26 years old, is NOT attractive. 

Other than the nightmares I am feeling great emotionally. I can't actually remember the last time I had a really bad day, today I am a little anxious due to the nightmares, but I am hoping that will pass.

Symptoms this week include; Tiredness, nausea, backache, & a very heavy feeling feeling tummy. My girly is doing well though, very active, she starts kicking the moment I wake of a morning & will sometimes continue throughout the day but there is definetely a pattern, she mostly kicks when I have eaten/drank something & of an evening is when she has her "energy spurts" also, I am not sure if it is classed a "symptom" but I can't help but want to CLEAN EVERYTHING at the moment. I can't keep still for too long, I have to be doing something, I think they call it nesting? but i'm not sure, I never had this when pregnant with Joel.. This pregnancy is different in so many ways.. <3

Over all I am really enjoying my pregnancy & I am getting so excited about finally meeting her in 16 weeks time.. I can't wait. 

That's all for this week, keep a look out for next week's post. 
Thanks for reading. Xxxxx 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 22.

Dear Diary... 

Week 22:

This week I am truly struggling to keep my baby girl's name under wraps. It's so hard! with Joel I announced his name the moment we found out his sex, & that was that, but this time I didn't want to do that because I wanted something that was secret up until she is born, but now I am not so sure as I am really struggling! Neil doesn't see the reasons why I have kept her name quiet, which is making me want to cave even more! 

I really do think that it will be lovely to announce her name for the first time once she is here, but I am also no good under pressure & keeping secrets, especially exciting secrets of my own! 

Pregnancy this week is pretty quiet, LOTS of movements from little lady, sometimes it actually hurts when she kicks, I know that sounds proper wussy, but she kicks so low down that it also makes me feel slightly nauseous. 

I'm pretty excited about seeing our little lady again in 5 weeks time for our 28 week growth scan! Bring on 16th April.. 

That's all for this week, keep an eye out for next weeks post. 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 21.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 21: 


So this week I am still digesting the fact that our baby girl is HEALTHY & also the fact that she is actually a GIRL! :') Not that I didn't ever want a girl, I just never imagined myself with one! I guess because I already have a boy I was just convinced i'd get another. I have spent this last week looking at loads of girlie bits that I can buy for her in the coming weeks & I am so excited. Also, she finally has her name (which I am not sharing until she is born, sorry) I want to, I really do, but I also think it will be lovely to announce her name for the first time once she has entered the world. 

Other than this, nothing else has really been happening this week. I am getting used to saying "she" instead of "he" jeez, how wrong was I on that, but then on the other hand, it just feels so right. I kinda knew about 2 weeks before I had my scan that we were possibly having a girl, I just got this overwhelming feeling & I wasn't surprised in the slightest when it was confirmed, infact I was over the moon because I was already really set on her name & the fact that I hadn't really paid much attention to a boys name kinda made sense once we knew her gender! 

I am now looking forward to our 28 weeks scan on 16th April when we get to see our girl once again, this is just a routine growth scan & we'll be having another at 34 weeks, then at 36 weeks I see my consultant to sign all the consent forms for my section & at 39+4 my girl will be entering the world!!! eeeek, exciting. :D 


Keep a look out for next weeks post... 
i'm sure it will be exciting, I hope you are enjoying my journey so far? 
thanks for reading. Xxxxx 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 20!

Dear Diary...

Week 20: 

Our beautiful little lady. 

So we are now "officially" half way there *sings Bon Jovi living on a prayer* this week has been such an emotional one for me but today I got the news I was so desperate to hear. 

This morning we attended our 20 weeks anomaly scan, & everything was perfect. I am absolutely over the moon to announce that our babies lungs are perfectly healthy! No signs of CCAM whatsoever. Tracey, the lady who did our scan was so lovely, she showed us everything she was doing & talked us through it all & we even got to see for ourselves how clear our babies lungs are! 

Relieved is not even the word. I am so happy! :D 

After our scan we saw our consultant (or at least one of his colleagues) & she spoke with me about my birth options. I have opted for a section (which was also recommended) due to my difficulty & complications giving birth to Joel three years ago. On top of that I was also terrified of the thought of having to go through natural labor again so her saying "yes, we'll book you in for a planned section" really took some weight off my mind. I just didn't think for a second we would get our date TODAY! :D she told us that we'd be booked in when I reached 36 weeks & then she went on to talk about something else but then came back on to the subject of our section date & asked us if we wanted her to see if she could book us in for our date today.... & I can't believe that she actually managed it. 

So it has now been decided & we are booked in for our little lady to enter the world on 7th July 2014, when I am 39+4 weeks pregnant. I have to see my consultant again at 36 weeks to sign all the consent forms & stuff but other than that I won't really need to see him again until then! unless of course something is seen at our 28 & 34 week growth scans! (I have to have these because of my weight & my BMI being above 30, or at least I think that is why?) either way I don't mind... it means we get to see our little lady two more times before she's here! 

I am so excited, but I am also still in shock. I can't believe that I am actually going to have a daughter, until today, I wasn't sure if I wanted a girl, but now we have been told there is a little girl growing in my womb I couldn't be happier! I now have one of each.. Our family is finally almost complete & I just know already from the bottom of my heart that Joel is going to make the BEST big brother in the world.. He is going to dote on his little sister, I can already see it. 

 

TEAM PINK!! 

Later, when we got home, we did a "gender reveal" with a friend. Another friend of mine made me some Cupcakes with pink icing on the inside so we didn't actually tell my other friend the sex of our baby, we just gave her a cupcake, told her to take a bite & that would tell her the sex of our baby! I have never seen her jump up & down so much with excitement! :D It was brilliant. After we had announced the sex of our baby, we also asked her if she would be Joel & little lady's god mum..... I think it's safe to say that she went home this evening one very happy person!! ;) 

That's all to report this week folks! 
Keep tuned for the next update... I hope you are enjoying my pregnancy diary? 

Thank you for reading. Xxxx 

Pregnancy Diary. Week 19.

Dear Diary.. 

Week 19: 

So this time next week we'll be a few days away from hopefully finding out the sex of our baby! I am so excited yet so nervous all at the same time. Last night I experienced my first proper kicks from our bean, even my husband felt them! :) 

My waist line is getting bigger & I am beginning to feel really rather pregnant. I am so excited to meet my new baby & it seems to be flying. 

Nothing much else to report or talk about really, the next exciting post will be when we have our scan, so look out for that! 

Thanks for reading. Xxxxx