Dear Diary..
So I have been wanting to write a blog post for a few days now, only I haven't known what to say, I have had so much going on, & so much going around in my head that's its been a struggle to put it all into words & it actually make sense.. I am going through so many emotions at the moment that I don't quite know how I should be feeling. Firstly there is my health, I attended Leeds General Infirmary for a ct scan on my head on Friday (14th August) to once again check my shunts, as since May I have been suffering with headaches, nausea, blurred vision, mood swings & personality change.
We saw my neurosurgeon on 6th August & it was him who arranged the ct scan, as he "suspects" that my shunts may well be over-draining. well, his actual words where that he thinks the shunt on my right side isnt doing very much at all, & it's that shunt that is causing the headaches & pain! but he also suspsects that if the right one isnt doing much it could be placing strain on the left one, which could be causing that one to over-drain! I am really hoping this ct scan shows something, he showed us the ct scan from Feburary, just after I had 3 revisions, & my ventricals where closed completely, then the scan I had in May showed my ventricals had opened again, but not to a point that was worrying, & because these headaches have continued that is why he has wanted another ct scan doing.. he doesnt seem to think there will be much difference in the scan that was done on Friday & the one that was done in May, so I guess we shall soon see.. but if it shows that my shunts are over-draining then he has said new shunts will need to be put in! (fun) so I am now just waiting for Thursday (20th August) so that I can find out what is what. I hate waiting, it's so stressful, especially when I am in so much pain all the time at the moment.
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Then ontop of all this I am a bit of an emtional wreck as on 7th September my baby boy will be starting reception & I just can't believe that he is growing up! it still only feels like yesterday to me that he was placed in my arms for the very first time after a long & painful labor. I guess after all that he has been through in his little life, I am just so pleased that he is now a healthy, happy little boy & just like any normal child his age he is beginning his new adventure into school.. but for me its so overwhelming.. I never imagined that he would grow up this fast. - & not just him, his sister too! Felicity is 13 months old now, & she is so advanced for her age, even if she is a little diddy-bum! she started walking just days after her first birthday, she is so independant it's untrue.. although I do have to admit, I love how she is still that bit clingy toward me! it makes me feel loved & wanted, especially now that Joel is well & truly grown up & doesnt like to be treated like a "baby" because he is a "big boy now!"
Asif all of that hasn't had my head in a spin, I have also taken the plunge & began my own little adventure.. on 25th July I joined Younique, which for those who don't know, it is an independant company that sells natural mineral make-up & it's beyond amazing! I was never ever a make-up sort of girl until I got interested in Younique.. I began by watching a few of my facebook friends as they joined up, I liked their pages & basically observed everything for a couple of weeks before coming to the decision that I wanted to do it myself... so far I have placed two orders & I am now wearing make-up almost daily, just doing this & being able to focus on something has boosted my self-esteem & confidence, & not to mention, helped with my low moods! I got worried that I was going down that slippery slope with my Depression when my shunts started playing up because I just feel so poorly all of the time, I don't manage to spend much time with my children because I spend a lot of time in bed, so becoming a Younique presenter has been a very welcomed distraction.. & my new obsession, i'm not going to lie! ;)
If anyone is interested in purchasing from me or even just checking my website out then here is how.
My online personal website for my Younique can be found here...
& I also have a business page on Facebook that can be found here...
I will be updating again in a few days mostly on whats happening with my shunts.. & whats the neurosurgeon has said ect! Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this. It means a lot to me. Xxxx
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